I’m an INFJ and…

I’m finding it hard to express my happiness at the moment. In fact, my main reason for starting this blog is to teach myself how to better express myself. Only recently have I been able to somewhat express grief, anger, and depression. I’m not all doom and gloom, you know. But I feel as though I haven’t found the correct words to express my happiness. Well… for one, I shouldn’t look for the politically correct words or otherwise to express my happiness. I should just let the pen flow. Why can’t I just let the pen flow


Let the pen flow to the weirdest dreams

It will reveal those wild beings

Just let it write to the rhythm of the sea

And watch as your hopes become a reality

Keep your pen free to express extremes

Brave minds will gravitate to your everything

Release the cap and let it breathe

The pressure leaks in clear streams

Let go of ink to line it’s pleasure

Bury your chest to expose each measure

Give it your spirit and Your heart with each letter

Let your pen flow to your chaos and serene

From Me to You

Keota P

(P.s. I think Edgar Allan Poe was in my head or something. Whew!) 

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Come, Sit With Me. (I)

“He let himself in. You need to know that.” -Mary Ann Lomax (The Devil’s Advocate)

I am not, in any way, shying away from responsibility. I learned, much like Mary Ann, that you must pay attention to people, especially yourself. Sometimes you focus so much on the other person that you don’t realize your guard has fallen. But how does it slip away so easily?

“And then we talked. And we talked for hours. I hadn’t talked to anyone, really talked, to anyone in so long.”- Mary Ann Lomax (The Devil’s Advocate)

Talking, intimately, in an in-depth conversation about any and everything. So you think. But did you catch those half-truths with the outright lies? 

“He talked to me. No one had ever really talked to me before.” Mrs. Alice Lomax (The Devil’s Advocate)

For someone who hasn’t been treated well, it’s easy to fall for sweet nothings and empty promises. Self-love and self-respect are hard lessons to learn. Being connected to yourself so that you’re able to comprehend that you have a problem is even harder. Oh yeah, throw in being gullible. It’s not a crutch. It’s a shame.

“Someone takes an interest. Knew the Bible, every word. Just knew it by heart.”- Mrs. Alice Lomax (The Devil’s Advocate)

They pretend to share the same interests. All conversations need to be relatable. They need you to believe them. They need to believe themselves. The others just love their masks. 

“I only set the stage. You pull your own strings.”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

Most people beg for a scapegoat. They will kill for a scapegoat. But in the end, we all make our own decisions. Even in entrapment, it was your own decision. Cognitive dissonance is not only a toxic mental issue, it’s also a drug.

“You got a whole lot of that fury, yeah! It’s the last thing to go. It’s the final hiding place. It’s the final fig leaf.”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

Yes, but some are amazingly talented at hiding that fury. They will first hide it from themselves. Bright smiles and coaxing tones. Self control is mastery.

“You put that lying [expletive] on the stand!”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

Slander hide and lies. This is not a riddle.

“Vanity is definitely my favorite sin.”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

It’s everyone’s favorite sin. Self-love is important and necessary. But at times it easily goes too far. Humans are complicated.

“It’s not that you didn’t care for Mary Ann, Kevin. It’s just that you were a little more involved with someone else, yourself.”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

This is the one thing that most do not see. They might go on a rampage once they look at themselves.

“You know what? I’ll tell you, boy. Guilt is like a bag of fucking bricks. All you have to do is set it down.”- John Milton

It’s a protective shield that I use to cope with emotional pain. It goes back to lack of self-love and self-respect.

“He’s a prankster. Think about it.”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

I wonder if they meant to say The System.

“He’s a sadist!”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

I agree. And I think that I might be a masochist. Too long, I’ve walked around jaded.

“I care about what he wanted and I never judged him. Why? Because I never rejected, despite all his imperfections! I’m a fan of man! I’m a humanist.”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

I am absolutely a humanist. Yes. Absolutely. I will always be a spiritual humanist. Am I a walking contradiction? A walking oxymoron perhaps.

“Anybody want a drink? I’m having a drink.”- Christabella Andreoli (The Devil’s Advocate)

Seasmoke Cellars’ Pinot Noir if you do not have Parducci Red, please.

“What do you want?”- Kevin Lomax (The Devil’s Advocate)

Your honesty.

What are you offering?”-Kevin Lomax (The Devil’s Advocate)

You’ve just shown your hands.

“Everything! Anything! What do you want?! How about bliss for starters? Instant bliss! Bliss on tap. Bliss any way you want it.”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

First time shame on you. Second time shame on me.

“How about that thing you wanted the most?”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

The heart that was dangled in front of y soul? The heart that I wanted to walk with? What ever happened to it? It was painted on a canvas. It wasn’t alive. It was for show. I was taught well.

People think that they want more money or to be more attractive. Maybe a luxury sports car and a mansion. No, humans want to win. It’s the win.

“I take the bricks out of the briefcase. Freedom, baby, is never having to say you’re sorry!”- John Milton (The Devil’s Advocate)

As I’ve said, I have learned. Thank you.

Know Your Worth


If you knew the probability of your existence, you’d understand just how important you are. I’m speaking outside of ego here. I’m expressing the severity of life here on Earth. Know that you weren’t made. You were created. Remember that your life can end here by tonight or tomorrow. We never really know. So be sure to not walk your path crushing hearts, destroying the spirit of children, or promoting hate. I’m happy to see that aside from the toxic energy flow, there are people cleansing & healing each other. I love you,
🌎. #1in400trillion #love #resilient #cleanse #heal #breathe

Owl